I was thinking about how I prefer being bilateral and how it feels like I’ve been bilateral for a while….then I realized it hasn’t even been a week.
It just feels right. It feels natural.
I suspect a lot of that has to do with the fact that I always wore two hearing aids. I HATED wearing just one if the 2nd one didn’t work (which seemed to happen every 2 weeks the last couple of years I wore hearing aids) so much that I would avoid wearing it unless I HAD to. With just one hearing aid, I could only pick up 50-60% of what I felt I could pick up with both hearing aids. It was always either all or nothing for me. I would either wear both or I wouldn’t wear hearing aids at all.
There have been several situations recently where I would take off one CI just for a few minutes just to see if I could tell a difference between being bilateral or not. Oh man…it makes such a big difference in the quality of sound….I don’t know how I put up with hearing out of only one ear for 2.5 years.
Of course, there have been bumps in the road and I need to remind myself to be patient until I get more used to being bilateral. Things are louder and I am more sensitive to sound. I do ok in noisy settings but it’s the quiet settings that bothers me because I’m picking up every single little sound and they stand out more.
When I turn a page in a book..I jump and my heart races because of how loud and unexpected the paper sounds. That being said, I haven’t been wearing my CIs much at home (bad Kelly, I know). However, that’s also to be expected anytime someone gets a new CI. You have to work up to wearing it for longer and longer periods of time.
It wears me out. I don’t realize how hard my brain is working until I take my CIs off…..then my body just totally relaxes.
Bottom line is that even though there have been speed bumps in the road, it was the right decision for myself. I am looking forward to the day where I learn to tune out those measly little annoying sounds so that I can wear both CIs all day long.
It feels right. It sounds right.