I should probably explain that I’ve always had a few minor sensory issues. It’s almost more of a quirk than anything else or at least that’s what I like to think. 😉
I do enjoy being stimulated by things like bright colors, music, roller coasters, etc. However, I’ve always had a few issues with certain things. As a child it took forever for me to get used to wearing jeans just because of how the material felt. When I started my clinical rotations it took me forever to get used to wearing causal business type clothes. There have been days where I had a hard time focusing on what I was supposed to because I couldn’t stand how the clothes felt against my skin. Most of the time I can do a really good job at ignoring stuff like this but there are days where I have a hard time handling it. I did outgrow this somewhat and it has become easier over the years.
One thing that most people immediately notice about me is the fact that I’m not a touchy-feely person. I seem to be more sensitive to touch for some reason.
One example would be speech therapy. Growing up, I used to hate speech therapy for different reasons. One major reason was that a lot of my speech therapists would grab my hand without any warning to touch their throat (to feel them make sounds). Once they did that I was just lost for the rest of the session. I couldn’t focus on anything because I was trying so hard to remain calm and not get overstimulated. I was really good at faking it and acting like it didn’t bother me. I didn’t want it to. It got to the point where every time I had a new speech therapist I would request that they be informed in advance to please not be so touchy. 😉
Btw don’t worry, it’s okay to hug and touch me. 😀
This can also come into play with certain textures of food, etc. I have done so much better with this over the last few years and I’ve outgrown a lot of these things. I also know how to ignore it when it does bother me.
Anyways, that’s just one of my several quirks and there is a point to this rambling.
So, you all know last week I was a bit overwhelmed at first. Very understandable and I can’t imagine anyone not being overwhelmed. However, what I failed to prepare myself for was the possibility of the CI triggering my general tendency to be oversensitive to things. I have noticed even with the CI off that I’m a lot more sensitive to touch, smell, and taste. Especially touch. I caught myself snapping at a couple of people to not touch me (e.g. trying to get my attention). This is something I only do when I’m overwhelmed and I don’t realize it. Immediately afterwards I felt really bad, because it had nothing to do with them. I’m also noticing that things in terms of taste and smell are twice as strong as usual. Itches have also became almost unbearable.
One may quickly assume that it’s associated with the CI directly. I believe it’s indirectly associated. It’s just something that caught me off guard and I didn’t have any of my coping skills in place. So, I decided to take this afternoon/evening off from my CI to hopefully calm down some of these overstimulated sensory issues before mapping tomorrow.
Torture Device (aka CI): 2