I Have A Brain!!!

I have a brain!!!

So, I’ll share the details of today’s cochlear implant appointment later when I have more time and energy. I just wanted to share the results with you all that I do actually have a full-sized brain in case any of you were doubting that. :-p

Let me rewind.

I had to have a CT-scan this afternoon prior to my appointment with the cochlear implant surgeon. After being stuck in a huge white machine I was handed a giant envelope with about 10 sheets filled with “pictures” of my lovely insides to take to the surgeon. Afterwards, I had this huge plan to sit in my car for about 5-10 minutes and try to analyze my CT-scans even though I don’t know much about ear bones. On my walk back to the car I had a light bulb moment and realized that…hey! I bet my brain’s included in these pictures!

I jumped into my car and tried to look for my brain (a whole head shot) photo. I kept pulling sheet after sheet of what showed my ear bones and cochlea….then finally! I found what I was looking for!

My brain! How many people can say they’ve seen a picture of their brain?! Pretty niffy, eh?

And yes, I’m sleep deprived.

Why Am I Nervous?

So, I’ve been a bit nervous all week….especially tonight.

I shouldn’t be this nervous, but I am.

What about?

My appointment tomorrow with the cochlear implant surgeon. I will basically make my final decision as to if I go through with it or not. I have 3 questions that I want him to answer. My final decision will be based on how those 3 questions are answered.

So, why am I nervous?

I’ve been trying to figure it out. I finally figured that it’s because I don’t want something to come up that makes me decide not to go through with it. I don’t want the surgeon to answer those 3 questions “wrong.” I think it’s hit me that I’m really nervous because I really do want to go through with this and I don’t want anything to stop me from going through with it.

And on top of it all. I have a phone interview tomorrow morning (my 2nd one for this particular position).


I’m fascinated by this website. I copied and pasted a description from their website.
Wordle is a toy for generating β€œword clouds” from text that you provide. The clouds give greater prominence to words that appear more frequently in the source text. You can tweak your clouds with different fonts, layouts, and color schemes. The images you create with Wordle are yours to use however you like. You can print them out, or save them to the Wordle gallery to share with your friends.”

The larger words (aka words I use more frequently) are the followings:

I expected those words to come up since I use them fairly often. I wasn’t expecting for “one” to be the largest word. It was interesting to see genetic related words and deaf related words come together all surrounding “one.”

What fascinates me the most is how I actually had to look for “deaf.” I thought for sure that would be one of the larger words. Instead, “hearing” was.

I’m tempted to do this every few months to see how it changes over time as things in my life changes.

*shoo* go and do yours!

Elephant Shoes or Olive Juice?

This is going to be yet another short post. I want to emphasis 2 things in this post.

1) Lipreading isn’t as easy as one may think.

2) Only 25-35% of spoken English is readable on the lips under ideal conditions (which rarely happens) and without any auditory input (hearing aids, cochlear implant).

Anddd……now…..*drumrolll* I present my first vlog!

By the way, ignore all the mistakes I made (I’m a vlog newbie!) and my dorkiness πŸ™‚


Genetics in SELF Magazine

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged about genetics. I usually don’t read SELF Magazine but I happened to grab a copy for some easy reading. I didn’t realize until after I bought it that there was a section (7 pages) about genetics.

Healthy Days Ahead! Easy, effective ways to make the most of your unique DNA. Hallie Levine Sklar

This article starts out talking about how many genetic conditions are caused by environmental and genetic factors (aka multifactorial/complex diseases). This point was addressed several times throughout the article. I was glad to see that it was addressed because many people think genetics is black/white and their genes determinate 100% of their health. Whereas that is not always the case; genetics is very gray. Just because you have a gene for a certain genetic condition (e.g. cancer) doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s 100% for sure you will develop it.

The article then goes on to talk about how to do your own personal family history intake for heart disease, diabetes, colon cancer, blood clots, breast cancer, and ovarian cancer. There are little notes about why it’s important to record the age of diagnosis in each family member. I have to admit I did cringe a bit when I realized that SELF Magazine was asking their readers to do their own family history intake to assess their own personal risk. However, I was glad they mentioned genetic counseling a few times and the importance of genetic counseling for family history of early onset cancers. Apparently, they even contacted the president of NSGC (National Society of Genetic Counselor).

Then, readers can use the “handbook” to learn more about each condition (heart disease, diabetes, colon cancer, blood clots, breast cancer, and ovarian cancer). It was interesting to read page after page of what women can do to reduce their risk of developing each of those conditions even if they’re predisposed to it. I think it gives readers a sense of power and control that they don’t always feel like they have when it comes to assessing their genetic risk based on their family history.

A few quotes from the article:
Genes aren’t the boss of your health–you are. Override your DNA.”

“75% of the factors that affect your life span are in your hands get motivated to stretch out your year.”

“Only about one fourth of the variation in human life span can likely be attributed to genetics.”

There were a few brief articles within the “handbook.” One article I found particularly interesting was Tempted by an at-home gene test? The results could lead to a bigger life change than you bargained for. Read on before you swab by Rebecca Adams. Rebecca writes about how there are almost 3 dozen companies that offer mail-in DNA tests and touches on a few concerns. One major concern is that while the Genetic Information Nondiscrimination Act (GINA) was passed last year it does not apply to life insurance companies. Regardless of GINA, some genetic-testing companies can still give your DNA information and name to marketers. Rebecca also emphasizes the importance of contacting a medical geneticist or genetic counselor to discuss the process of undergoing a genetic test and the implications that it may have. “Without guidance, Dr. Evans says, ‘testing results are arguably worthless.'”

While this article does try to give women the power of education and the sense that they have some control, it does emphasize the importance of consulting with a geneticist/genetic counselor.

The article can be found at:

Cochlear Implant Evaluation-Step 1

I had a CI evaluation appointment yesterday to verify that I’m a CI candidate. There has never been any question as to if I’m a candidate for a CI, but it’s part of the procedure. It’s also important to have this done for insurance purposes.

As I was driving up to the CI center I was thinking about how life really does seem to go in circles. Twenty-three years ago my parents drove ~4 hours to the very same center to get a second opinion. Thankfully it’s now a 40 minute drive πŸ˜‰ Anyways, they drove me up to this very same center and spoke to a CI surgeon. This doctor encouraged my parents to implant me even though he referred to it as an experimental surgery and it was in the trial phases (basically, I would have been one of his guinea pigs).

Even though experiments have been dated back to the 1800s, it wasn’t until the 1980s-1990s that these experiments became reality. To give another idea of how new this technology still is.

Cochlear is the oldest cochlear implant company. The very first Cochlear recipient was in 1978. Cochlear America’s office wasn’t even established until 1984. FDA approved CIs for adults in 1985. Clinical trials for children in the US also started in 1985. Let me clarify that 1985 was the year my parents took me to this CI center. It was definitely a very new and experimental surgery and no one knew what the outcomes would be. No one knew what kind of training would be successful with a CI. There were just too many unknowns at that time. CIs weren’t approved by the FDA for children (age 2-17) until 1990.

I couldn’t help but think that I was going back to the very same center where one of the doctors wanted me to undergo an experimental surgery. I have to say that it had to be a very difficult decision for my parents to make and I 100% believe that they made the best decision for me at that time to not be implanted.

Anyways, the appointment lasted about 2 hours. The audiologist mentioned a few times that it was a very easy appointment for her and a fairly short one. I had already read a lot of studies about CIs, I did my “homework”, and I have the benefit of having friends who have CIs.

Some people have asked me what happened during my appointment. Basically we just talked about the reasons why I was interested in receiving a CI and the best CI “brand” for someone with my background. I also had several hearing tests. One with my hearing aids, one without, one with my hearing aids in my right ear only, one with my hearing aid in my left ear only, etc. I found out that my hearing has dropped 5 db in my left ear and I’ve somehow lost about 15 db all across the graph when aided. The audiologist checked my hearing aids and they’re at the maximum setting possible. She also gave me 2 additional tests. One was where I had to tell her what words she was saying without lip-reading (with hearing aids). I scored a very low 0% on that test, lol. For the second test I was given a list of words where I had to choose from the list which word she was saying (once again no lip-reading). I scored 55% on this.

There are several steps involved in the process of receiving a CI. The next step is to have a CT-scan to make sure there are no structural issues with my cochlea that may affect surgery and outcomes. I will also have a balance test after my CT-scan because CI surgery can affect your balance. After that I will meet with the CI team including the surgeon. I’m looking forward to meeting with the surgeon because I have several questions about long-term risks associated with the surgery itself. How significant these risks are to me is what will determine if I decide to be implanted. I’m already pretty familiar with these risks but I want to hear them directly from the surgeon.

The next appointment (CT-scan, balance test, and team meeting) is next Thursday so tune in next week!

My Name is Not "Tell Her"

I was going to blog about a different topic but I’ll save it for another day since it requires a certain level of thinking that I’m not capable of at 2am.

I was heading to bed and happened to see this video of Marlee at the 1998 Oscars.

If you do watch this, please do not do what the reporter/interviewer does.


One of my pet peeves is when people constantly say “tell her.” I don’t mind when a person is not used to using an interpreter nor do I mind it if it happens every once in a while. (I’ve been guilty of this myself.) It’s a whole different story when someone does it constantly after I’ve explained that they don’t need to. They can just ignore the interpreter and talk directly to me. Most of the time I ignore it unless it’s with people that I interact with on a daily basis.

Why is it important to me? I would say a lot of it has to do with respect. I could go into more details here but it’s 2am.

Since a post is not complete without an example:
I was on my high school gymnastics team one year. For some reason there were a few girls along with my coach who never quite understood not to say “tell her” when talking to me even though I gently reminded them from time to time. One day I was talking to a teammate while we were rotating on the bars and every fifth word she said seemed to be “tell her.” I finally could no longer resist the urge (those of you who know me know that I like to joke around) and with a smile I said “my name is not tell her, it’s Kelly.” Unfortunately, this girl completely missed the hint and continued to say “tell her.” πŸ™‚

So, for those of you who aren’t used to using an interpreter…I have 2 suggestions that many deaf people will greatly appreciate and will make the situation more comfortable for both sides.
1) Maintain eye contact with the deaf person when possible. You may find that the deaf person you’re talking to may not make eye contact with you as much because she/he has to watch the interpreter also. So, don’t take it personally. πŸ˜‰
2) Avoid saying “tell her/him.”

If you happen to forget to maintain eye contact or if you accidentally say “tell him/her.” No worries, we won’t bite you. We’ve been guilty of doing the same thing when talking to a hearing person through an interpreter.

Hopefully tomorrow I’ll remember what I originally wanted to blog about.

Sign Language Receptive Skills

Most of you know that I’m not a native ASL signer. I grew up using SEE2 and later learned CASE/PSE in high school. I did take a couple of ASL classes which weren’t that helpful since they just focused on vocabulary and not the syntax.

Anyways, I’ve always said that I understand ASL much better than I can sign ASL. In the past few weeks I’ve noticed that this applies to many other deaf people and not just me.

It seems like those who grew up signing English or more oral have much better ASL receptive skills than ASL expressive skills. Why do I find this interesting?

It’s completely the opposite with hearing people who learn ASL. Hearing people seem to have much better ASL expressive skills than receptive skills.

Why is this? I have a couple of theories, but they’re not well thought out yet. Thoughts? πŸ˜‰

Traveling and Colorado

Something always happens whenever I take a trip. At this point I just expect that something will happen and it’ll all work out fine as long as I go with the flow, I don’t have to cancel any activities, and no one gets seriously hurt/sick.

There is an approximately 60-75% chance that something will happen whenever I travel. Thankfully they have been minor stuff.

A few examples.

–Hawaii with my aunt, uncle, and cousin: There were lagoons where we were staying at and it felt so separate from the rest of the ocean. I decided to swim out to the edge of the lagoon where I could get a better view of the coast. I then discovered there were rocks under the water and I got this brilliant idea to climb onto them. I stepped on a bunch of sea urchins in the process of climbing underwater rocks that I couldn’t see. Let’s just say I ended up with 30-50 sea urchin needles stuck in my feet for 2-3 months until they all finally dissolved.

–Ireland with Tara: We came within 1-2 minutes of being crushed by a falling rock.

–Paris with Tara: We missed our train to the airport (where we were going to spend the night at due to an early flight) and were escorted through Paris by 3 French policemen to a bus stop.

–North Carolina with Sarah: Her car went bonkers and the brake lights came on (something you never want to see while driving). We then got to spend a couple of hours getting to know Earl the tow guy who actually ended up damaging Sarah’s car more.

–Flight out of NYC: I got chased down the gate by an airport employer because apparently I wasn’t supposed to board the plane when I tried to.

–Drove to Minnesota to visit Scott: Got rear-ended on I-35N.

–Wisconsin with Jen: We ended up behind a semi-truck full of crates with chicken. They all decided to poop at exactly the same time. We had to pull off and find a car wash.

–The time I tried to get past security with a boarding ticket that had someone else’s name on it (note to self: check boarding pass immediately to make sure my name is on it or they may get very suspicious).

–First time visiting NYC: I was by myself when I visited NYC for the first time (graduate school interview). Being who I am, I failed to even consider bringing a map or to even look up anything. I have no sense of direction and am somewhat a wander. Let’s just say that after several detours in the Harlem, Manhattan, and Yonkers…it took me 3 hours to get from the airport to Sarah Lawrence College.

You get the idea.

So, Tara and I decided to take a road trip to Colorado. Luckily gas prices have been around $1.50 otherwise I would not have been able to go. I also recently discovered that some ski resorts in Colorado have reduced lift tickets for deaf people (aka “disabled” people). We went to Winter Park ($34) once, Steamboat Springs ($30) once, and Copper (FREE) three times. We basically paid $64 total for 5 days of snowboarding that would have cost us $450 if we weren’t labeled as “disabled” by society. Although, this is one time that I won’t complain too much about it (even though I wasn’t thrilled about walking around Winter Park with an actual “disabled” label on my coat). πŸ˜‰

Of course, something always happens when we travel together. To summarize it up, we arrived at our hostel only to find that the person who had made our reservations had been fired the same day he made our reservations. Apparently he and his father were fired for embezzling and he hadn’t put our names down (turns out he had already been fired when he talked to Tara) for reservations. Lucky, the hostel manager was nice enough to let us crash in his single room and he slept on the couch in the TV room. The only downside was having to share a bed and having to hunt him down every time we returned to the hostel for the key to get into his room.

Colorado was good other than a short asthma attack at the very top of a mountain. I finally made it off the greens! I went down a few short blacks (and survived), but I still need to work on keeping my board straight on the blues rather than to the side. Hopefully by the end of the next snowboarding trip (whenever that will be) I will be a pro on blues and will be able to do blacks much better.

Some pictures!